Reflections
This year, 2005, is a wasted year for me... I did not make use of the time i had to do things i wanted to... i cannot regret as this is the path i had chosen...
Jan - wasted the whole month sleeping at home Feb - still play n sleep -> time wasted... Mar - results recieved... poor results, die... April - thinking i shd go poly mah... found a job... May - got into gv, fun began... haha June - left that bakery shop, that place really sucks! July - got into SIM... boring life again Aug - National day, singapore on the 9th and malaysia 31st! working nvery hard to buy a bicycle. by now i think got 17 wives liao... hehe Sep - Francia became my best friend! Oct - 桃花运... omg! Nov - my sis n me bdae. got a bf...both of us... hehe, also a problem month Dec - christmas... a very tiring month, school holiday very busy Thats all roughly wat had happened... in few more mins time new year liao! hehe... its a new begining... this time round hopefully to become more hardworking! yeah... haha...
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Sick
Wah... i am sick! Having a terrible headache sia... feeling hot and cold now. Wah and that stupid wai mun still havent come home sia...
Everyone canot sleep! must wait for her. If only she had said earlier then we dun haf to sit here and wait until i fever liao... qi si ren le la... forget it since she got that he to take care of, i guess i should not be bother about her anymore liao, well guess she dun need me anymore also.
Francia leaving in another months time, haiz... just hoping she will come back singapore again!
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bad day
OMG! tml closing with benjamin!!! die liao die liao... no one to play with liao...
haiz... ever since that day, we never really talk face to face anymore... only smses... but sometimes talk to him really can vomit blood sia... he always pissed me off! for some reason or another... sms me nonsense, in the end, end up like my fault again. Actually to be frank, before he actually confessed, i also dun talk to him much, nv sms him unless for test prints... now i sms him more lor. not more than francia la... but each time ended up very bad... but the next day he will sms again... siao siao wan. haha...
As for me and dy, really no confidence liao, losing a lot of confidence in this relationship liao. I serious, he thinks i m joking. haiz... and plus he is younger than me, a lot pressure sia. plus, i dun intend to stay in singapore in future, unless if there is smth i cannot let go here... but... i guess i still do not love him that much ba... haiz... ya... francia say give him more time... and i am giving him a lot of time! haha... will see ba... hopefully something will happen...
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hoho
today suppose to meet dy at 12.30! thought he will auto reach at 12.30 wan, but still need ppl call... purposely dun wan call made him late and i am early...
Then later at the amk mrt station, saw that uncle... haha... the sell mix rice de uncle, very long nv see him liao, from golden hair become black liao... i wasn't sure if it was him at first... actually he is also not that old la, early 20 ba... haha... he is forever asking my phone number, everytime i say nv bring out... hehe... anyway, sat on the mrt all the way to kranji with him.... dun say liao later dy angry... but told him i saw my friend he dun believe me... qi si ren le!!! i hate it when my closest friends dun trust what i say!!! arghz... so semi-ignore him the whole day! but still watch harry potter with him again... haha... i promised to. hehe... wah closing later, withe francia!!! haha...
they will bully me wan!
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FUN
Today was so fun... with francia and lei any! My two phillipino maid... hehe...
Today candy bar closing was suppose to be benjamin and francia... most of the time ben was at floor. Avoiding me again, but dunno why he always tell ppl i avoid him. but anyway dun talk about him liao, sometimes even i myself also very pissed off with him...
Ya, and francia never eat you know. Next time hor, ppl who work with her must eat down n watch her eat sia. BUt really had a great fun. I will miss them if they go back... haiz... they are highy impossible to come back sg! And they keep reminding me when they are leaving....
BUt i swear i will never cry... haha...
Recovered
One month had pasted, ever since my birthday, i am now 19 years and one month old! omg so old liao... For the past few days really sleep like a log. No dreams, sleep until alarm rings.... I am really that tired meh? Now, i really felt tired, but then cannot sleep again...
Finally made up my mind to be with him once again. He was really very understanding... hehe... in fact everyone i knew all very understanding except for one. Anyway now is already 12.30 am my sister finally willing to hand over the comp. He is asleep, everyone is sleeping... good timing sia... haha... but nevermind...
Tml review for stage 1 driving... better get some sleep now... haha
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Sleepy
I am sleepy! very sleepy. I dunno why, i am always so sleepy. I slept for so long, but i am still sleepy. Somehow i got this feeling, i dun feel like waking up, is not that i am escaping from this world... but seriously i am really super tired! haiz... i also dunno whats wrong with me...
Today, my sis suggested that she waned to change her job. Because of that when i went home, she and my mum were quarreling. Ended up i gave her 10 bucks my dad lend her 50 my mother gave her 30 cents... as she said she got no more money. But then in the end she dun wan to take. Haiz... money money money. Just because of that few money, make ppl unhappy. Is money really that powerful? Does it really can control the one person mood? hmmm...
Still saving very hard for my car! Still got a long way to go! haha...
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^_^
The whole day... for one whole day, i never reply his sms, never answer his calls, never message him on MSN. hmmm... dunno how he is feeling now also...
Hmm... tml driving lessons again! lookind forward into banging people... haha...
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一个人
一个人生活,一个人读书, 一个人上学, 一个人放学, 一个人看电视, 一个人吃饭,一个人...
两个人看戏,两个人吃饭,两个人shopping,两个人...
I dunno, i think i still prefer to be in my own. Maybe is because i am too used to be alone. I like to be alone. Doing what ever things i like without giving a thought of other people. Somehow, i am feeling that i am losing a lot of freedom... somehow... somehow... somehow... perharps it's because i am too lazy. I dun want him to travel so long just to meet up, i am also lazy to travel so far to meet up with him. being with him, really felt a bit of pressure. HOw to hide from my mum, where to go, what to do... but i like being with him... haha...
I seriously dunno what i want sia....
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Driving...
OMG! that instructor again... but i like... haha... he is damm funny sia!
I like driving liao! Always joke with me... and scold me of course... hehe... he say i alway play with my accelerator. when i like i step dun like then release so fast... and dunno how to brake... only know how to gear up never gear down wan...
But driving lessons is realli very fun looking forward to tml's...
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Me and ...
Okie today is the day...
Officially dong yi asked today okie! and is people ask him ask wan lor... lets see. the first time we went for a movie was actualli signed by vanny lor, but that was early in the morning at 10.10 am show. The lengend of the zorro. Then after that we went to school. Francia was the first one to suspect. Since she was the closest to me. The rest of them were too busy with the other couple liao. Actually that day i felt quite weird. This guy go see movie with him so ma fan wan. Still have to buy him mineral water, then hor, dunno why the whole stretch so long must chose the seat beside mine and mus lift up arm rest wan. But actualli i prefer taking the whole row by myself... but since i dun really know him, i didn't really told him also la.
Then after that went to school. Then a few days later suppose to watch movie with him whole day... ended up i suddenly need work so we only watched two movies. Then after that, i forgot what happen liao... short term memory... haha...
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01/12/2005
hmm... today is a new day! New day, new month! i like it man...
Today, go learn driving! surprisingly, saw grancia... haha... thought she came there to see me... but then she was learning driving also... haha... her car was so close to my car, haha... and she parked in front of me sia... Later, i brought her home to see my pa pa and ma ma... haha... no lar. Actually, brought her home for fun. Actually my house got nothing to do... i think she also bored here, and she never come into my bedroom... can see what a mess it was in la...
Then school, change teacher! told you is a new day, new teacher, but no new friends. That teacher was boring... chanted for 2 hours plus, but i didn't fall asleep! haha, cos there is lots of nice nice food!
After school, went to bishan and worked EOS. Actually, i felt nothing in room 4. The thing felt extremely strong in another room... i also dunno why. And by the way, i want say that emily rose that story, was really true! 3 am in the midnight, really can feel something wan. I remembered i told someone before, but everyone thought it was a joke, i didn't bother to explain also... haha... thats the end of the day liao... now that i am back...
To Be Continued...
