Ended
Finally, Physic Paper 5 has already end! Which also means that MY A LEVELS HAD ENDED! I actually should be really happy that finally exams are over, but I guess i was not! especially after exam. I was quite sad. I did not spoke a word after that, but maybe i spoke a few. No more going to school! No more waking up at 6.30 am in the morning! I really miss waking up at 6.30 and go school!
It's time also for me to find a job now. Hope that i can find one that i like... dunno have to go through how many rejection before i get one.
Over
Today, Physic paper 3! The 18 chapters I had learnt came out a few. Mordern physic did not came out! Teachers kept emphaising that Mordern physic will sure be a question, but in the end it never came out! But then I still never study that chapter, so it doesn't really matter to me. But Physic of fluids, the question they asked was very very different! I was really stun for a while.
After Physic paper I was so so happy! Finally the most important wan is over! It is time to celebrate! No no... Tomrrow, there is still paper 5.
To Be Continued...
Sad
Wondering why i wish my exams dun end? I realised that I really really miss school very much! If the exams dun end, this means that i can still have a reason to go school. Thursday is my real last day of school and also marks the end of A levels. I miss my friends, teachers, miss the times when I everytime kena suan by people in class or by uncle loh. Miss a lot of things!
This year A levels had a very weird format! Everything is so unexpected, things i studied failed to come out, things i never study came out. Arghz... but still after i calculated my physic MCQ result, i got 20/30 at least. So happy i pass! hope i can get at least D for physic.
Today is the "last" day i am talking to my ICQ friend again. That stupid pig had sent his comp back to KL and will start school again on the following monday. So today is the last day of talking on ICQ with him liao. Haiz... why is everyone leaving me now?
To Be Continued...
Blur
Yesterday slept at 2.40 and today woke up at 6.40! Only 4 hrs of sleep!can't believe i actually woke up in the morning, i thought i kept telling myself the night b4 not to get up... arghz... in the end i still got up and went to school lar...
Today, I woke up don't know why, i feel like everything is like a game... I felt that i was in a Sims World! Perharps, play too much Sims liao. I just feel that everything that people do is control by another person... people are just command to say the particular words for today and do that particular things. This is the reason for being so happy, feel that everything in this world isn't real!
To Be Continued...
Rainy
Its now 00.43 am, rainning... heavily! I cannot sleep cause when it rains, there is too much mosquitoes... so to spent my time... typing rubbish again!
Just a few more days to the end of A levels! I should be happy, but however I am not! Wai? Because I think I did badly for the exams. Physic paper 1 and 2 really arghz... maths paper 2... also another wan... computing paper, although is mostly general knowledge, but i scare i do not say enough and do not need their marking scheme.
However, what is done is done... this is what people always say. True lar, no point thinking about it after you had done, but but...
Lately, don't know whats wrong with me. Don't know why i so kind to others, isn't my policy now is to not treat people so good? nowadays, everytime had to give up seats on buses or mrt, i don't do that in the past. So end up always standing until leg pain. But then, i still haven treat my dad in a nice way, esp. on a friday! Just now my attitude towards him wasn't really good, some sort of giving him a irrated look. Arghz... can't believe i am feeling gulity now! must be eat wrong medicine liao... haiz... not been myself lately...
To be Continued...
Screwed
Today, Physic paper 1 and 2. I think i had screwed it up again liao, I dunno whats wrong with me lar, haiz... really really hope that i wont get a E or O or a F... however, poornima kept telling me that paper 3 will be better. I hope so, I hate caluculations part! Everytime i will be lost in there... Thinking now what should i do if i get a E E E... where should i go? I feel that i am really very lost now. no confident, no mood... just cannot wait for everything to be over!
To Be Continued...
Panic
Physic PAPER tomrrow! Physic had always been my WORST subject of all the subjects... So since my other subjects are quite bad liao, so physic surely is worst lar. But this time I am aiming to get at least at least a D!
So... so far only my ICQ friend had wished me luck for tml paper. Lately cannot be bother to go collect more lucks liao. Maybe, I will bring my lucky stone tomrrow! But then that stone was quite heavy. It is only a stone i picked up in the carpark, a funny stone. Haiz... still got anyone wants to wish me? I think i need more luck for tml paper liao...
After all my ICQ friend is still the best! Since dunno when, this friend had become my best friend online. We talked a few minutes per day since he is so FREE! This coconut head always call me pig... hmmm... do I look like one? I think i look more like sotong... hahaha... no lar, I am a human! To be frank, I dun even know his name... he like got 3 names liao so far... dunno which wan is real one also... Up to today, sometimes i still thinks that i know him personally... hahaha... cause i NEVER seen him in real life b4! and i think we wont in this life time... Just want to say, thanks for listening to my loads of craps and complains! hahaha...
To Be Continued...
Haiz
So so so... maths paper 2 and computing today... My maths really really very haiz liao... I dunno say got hope a not? my statistics is forever that hopeless... when rena and poornima compare answer... I dun even have something to say liao, yeah is that bad... As for computing, it is more on common sense questions... by right should be quite easy! hope i dun screw it up... Coming up next is Physic!
really very tired liao... after the long long paper... 6 hrs! I nearly fall asleep in the maths paper 2 liao... so hard until i keep scratching my head... until my hair all wan drop liao... time to go yun nam liao! Time to sleep good night!
To Be Continued....
Holiday
Another HOLIDAY! I am now 18 yrs and one day old liao! I still cannot get over the fact that i am so old liao! But yesterday, I had thought it all over again... I got a new goal now! I wan buy a car! no no... I will first buy a bicycle then a motorcycle then a car! I am now trying to save money, which means... i am not going to buy a new bag, no new shoes, no new clothes and shall walk more and take lesser buses! hahaha... I am so proud of my new goal!
By the way, who is that stupid idiot coconut head eew? arghz... I know my english very the 烂, but then i too lazy to type in chinese so... hahaha... bear with it lol...
Arghz... tomrrow computing and maths paper together! 6 hrs! I need lots of good lucks! I am so going to fail my statistics... my computing? see first lar... hope it will be easy lar... gtg liao... have to study!
To Be Continued...
Birthday
Today, the 14th november! Its my birthday! but it seems that only 8 people auto wished me today, sad right? I guess if this goes on like that, very soon i will also forget my own birthday! No present, no nothing.... haha... luckily still got one bdae cake!
Finally I am 18! It seems like very old liao... one near closer to my DOD (Date of Death)... To look on the bright side, 18 which means a bit more freedom and also means have to pay more for swimming entrance fees liao! Arghz... I dun wan to be 18!
To Be continued...
Better
Today, feeling a bit better... It's getting more siclening to study at home... with all those distractions... therefore end up i only did very super little things...
Do Know Since When, My House Is Now Like My Malaysia That House Liao, I Think Is Even Worst Than There Liao. Back In Malaysia, At Night When I Sleep, I Can Always Hear The Sound Of The Mosquitoes In The Room, Flying Around My Ears... End Up, Everytime Did Not Sleep Well. So My Mother Always Ask Me Go Other People's House And Sleep. And Yesterday, When I Was Sleeping, There Is This Big Fat Mosquito, Flying Around Me, Biting Me like More Than 10 Times Liao. So End Up Yesterday, I Went To Sleep In The Living Room Myself So Lonely... Haiz... Got Not Enough Sleep!
And By The Way... It's Dinner Time!
To Be Continued...
Sick
Today, I think i am really sick! after eating the two dinner yesterday, maybe i ate too much or what. I was really having a very very very pain stomachache! The below contents might be super gross!
WARNING!
So if u haven eat ur dinner/lunch or breakfast eat b4 u read on... if u are eating now, then u better dun eat liao...
Yeah back to my stomach pain! I was sitting on the toilet bowl for about half an hour or a bit more... Somehow i got this feeling that my shit is going to come out, but then it is still in the process of making... One min past, 5 mins past, arghz... and nothing seems to be happening... but my stomach got worst! finally at the duno how many min finally something come out! But then i still got this feeling that my business will not end here, cause my stomach still very pain! so i flush the toilet and continue sitting on the toilet bowl, waiting for the business to come... I was stuck inside for the next 15 mins or so, i was sweating like mad, feel like fainting, so i tried to change my pose... i lean back and tried to sleep, but really very pain so cannot fall asleep. ( got one time i really fall asleep inside...haha...). Then suddenly, i feel like puking! then, one, two , three, i turn and vomit out inside the toilet bowl! I thought that was over liao, but then this puking feeling came again! so haha.. aim properly and puke out! then i sit back to my position... then arghz... i felt like vomiting again... but this time, i wasn't prepared when i turn and aim... It was a bit overshot, end up i had to clean it up lar... after all these, my stomach was flatten... my legs were weaken... feeling that i am going to faint anytime... i flush the toilet... slowly walk out and lie on my parents bed... dun even bother to shift myself in a more comfortable position and i fell asleep for 1 hr...
1 hr later, i woke up, my stomach wasn't pain anymore! haha.. so happy, i can eat, play and sleep again! but i guess i had wasted today liao...
To Be Continued...
Birthday
Today, the 10th November 2004, its my sister 16th birthday! and four more days to mine... so during this four more days, i am one year older than her only. Guess what i gave her? A cute big mug... hahaha... that cost me a few bucks less than one week allowance! anyway i only got $15 per week...
Arghz... 4 more days and i m turning 18 liao... I hate that, I dun wan to grow up! Why can't the Earth stop spinning! Why dun it take a rest? Why it had spin for so long still not giddy? I hate the idea of 生老病死! If only, people will not die... arghz... remind me of my grandfather again! I guess i am starting to hate birthday liao...
For the past few days and months, i think i am geting more unfriendly... I ignore my good friends, smile lesser, always give them that kind of face... for whatever reasons... I myself also not very sure, hope that does not become a habit. Haiz... no mood to write liao...
To Be Continued...
Scratch
I am running out of photos! I dun really take a lot of photos for the past 5 years, so now it is time maybe i should go dig out my old photos... I was flipping through my baby photos then suddenly came a cross this photo (below) , I actually started scratching my head since i was a baby! hahaha... hmm... and wats the white stuff on my head? My mother say was powder, cause i got sensitive skin.
Today, I got maths paper in the afternoon, but then i still went to school in the morning, cause cannot really sleep so... and besides my father is fetching me to school... Reached school very early, then 8 plus came a long mr. seah! this is when my intensive revision starts! He really made me even more stressed up, calling me to do all those maths questions... and blah blah blah... and then singing some nonsense into my ears and reciting 三字经。。。 but i guess it helped a bit, or else i will be lost in my complex numbers today liao. This paper was quite okie lar... at least i did finish the whole paper in time and had enough time to check a little... this paper i predict would be better than my prelims. But then i dun 包太大的希望。Just hope that i can pass, cause i scare later the more u wish, the lesser u will get...
Okie that all for today... i have to take a break now, it was really a brain draining excerise just now... hahaha
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Excerise
I actually woke up at 8.45 today! hahaha... the night before, my mother was asking me to go Bishan Park to excerise, I so what agreed liao. But my mother was like quite doubtful that i can wake up so early on a sunday, because i had already 放她他飞机。。。 for a lot of times cause i really cannot wake up! But the problem today was, I WAS LATE! Yesterday promised her that will reach by 9.00am, but look at the time! I had rush, bush teeth, change clothes take my keys and ezlink and ran out liao. Sprint all the way downstairs to the bus stop, waited for a few minutes no bus... so i getting impatient so decided to run to bishan park... I took a lot of short cuts through the carpark... canot really be bother to look before i cross the road. Then suddenly just as i was about to cross the road again blindly, suddenly saw a police car! nearly bang into it liao... haha... then quickly run the other direction and sprint off! Too long never run liao, i can feel my throat burning, and a big pressure on my chest that make me damm hard to breathe! Finally, reach Bishan Park at 9.05! 5 mins late... i guess that was very fast... luckily my mother did not leave... she was so shocked to see me! haha... so proud of myself that i woke up so early!
But my legs hurts now...
To Be Continued...
Drivers
Yeah, actually yesterday i wanted to write about singapore drivers! Yesterday on my way to school i saw a lot of funny style of driving on the expressway.
First driver that i would like to comment is my father! Do not know why, yesterday he never wear shoes and drive, that is quite normal, but later i notice something! He only use two toes on the brake, and another two toes from another leg for the accelerator! This is quite weird, having him drive me to school for like more than 5 yrs liao, now then i notice that. He also likes to cut here and there when he drives, haha, and then my sister will scream because she thought we are going to have a car crash... hahaha... He likes to drive very fast, imagine a lorry running the same speed as a car! If no cars on the road even worst! Maybe that explain why he always kena fines! End up i always had to write letter trying not to pay the fine, which work most of the times when he never park his lorry at the correct spot. Now got a thousand and one excuse liao for not paying fines. Anyway, my sister always complains that he drive extremely slow when he is not fetching me, maybe he scare of my sister screams liao... hahaha
Second driver! this driver i do not know who is he lar, just saw him on the road. This old uncle was driving a motorcycle lar, with a red helmet. Nothing usual. But then suddenly i notice something! his hands were not on the handles! it was behind his back! and he was driving quite fast! Super skills! This is the two weird case i seen today. hahaha
Me, I also want to learn driving, but then my mother do not allow, cause as i said before, she scare i go bang into other cars. Because even in bicycle, i am already getting into countless number of bicycle clashing accident! I guess maybe i should not tell her lar... hahaha... oppss... getting naughtier liao...
To Be Continued...
Luck
Had not been in luck lately... Don't why nowadays always see that stupid 宝哥哥! For the past two year in CJC，I have not been even once caught by 宝哥哥, but then now dunno why, after we graduate always kena caught by him and is almost everyday that i go school this week! First time, was when we were in the comp lab studying, he came in and ask us what we are doing. I knew he wasn't very happy with that liao. Second time was when with rena, i was wearing sandals and rena was wearing slippers, then caught by him, say we should not wear this kind of "shoes" to school. Then later on thursday poon got caught for not wearing collar pin. Then today, that stupid uncle say that we cannot use the comp lab to study liao. This all happen in just this week! really very unlucky! maybe should go 打小人了。 After, all this finally i realise that he is afterall still a evil uncle! Just do not understand, so many people wearing slippers, no collar pin, not in proper uniform, he also never catch... why us! arghz... anway i think, we 害了 ah wang liao. sorry. No mood to write liao... ending off here liao.
To Be Continued...
Bushy
Today, the day had finally come, I had been trying to avoid this day for very long ago, but it does not work ALL the time! I still grew up, from a small baby to now 17+... Today for Gp essay i wrote about the topic on how far do you agree that recycling answer to the problem of waste... I wrote about I do not agree to a certain extent. then talk about the problem waste had created and the danger it poses to us, then next i said about recycling products how it had tried to reduce the amount of rubbish. And right at the end of that paragraph i said something like recycling somehow promotes the increase in amount of rubbish. then talk about how other methods could had solve this problem also... and finally conclude, and i wrote 4 pages! hopefully everything goes well... Comprehension! i think is okie lar... Must start to pray hard to pass GP! Should be able to pass lar, cause i had collected a lot of good lucks... hahha
Today i was running after a bus, i suddenly realise i cannot run anymore, not that i have not enough energy or what. After i caught up with the bus, i was limping to board on it and limping to get home... my leg really hurts... guess i will have to stick to swimming and not running liao... but i guess i will stort swimming for this month cause got exams... anyway just to let u know 10 more days to Emperor WAI bdae!
To Be Continued...
Wartime
Tml... It will be the start of A level exam! This day had finally came, feeling very stressful now, reading through the singapore statistics, but nothing seems to be going into my mind. I guess, I am too excited le ba...
Just now at 9.00 Ms lim called! Scared me out of my death! At first when she said she was ms lim, the first ms lim that came to my mind was ms mafrize lim, my secondary 3 and 4 form teacher. For a few seconds i was shocked, wondering why my secondary school teacher will call me so late, It took me quite a few minutes before i finally realised that was ms lim! yeah, my GP teacher, in CJ wan. She told me quite a lot, briefing me again on the topics i should choose and avoid, and touch a bit on comprehension ON THE PHONE! She told me i had improved in my language, but then, i still did not had much confident, i was very very worried what it the topic i want do not come out? what if i suddenly blank out? what if...? what if...? a lot of what ifs... But its too late to worry now right... so today i guess i will have to sleep early liao, so tml i will get a clearer mind to think properly...
Really touched that actually a teacher will call and tell you so much... haiz... afterall JC wasn't as bad as what my primary school teacher tells me. She used to scare me by saying, in secondary your teacher will not be as caring as primary, they will just come in and complete what they had to for the day, and by the time in JC, teachers will come in and talk for the whole lesson and you will have no time to write anything. So gave me a impression that teachers of the Sec and JC is unfriendly, old, heartless people... but the truth is not that. In fact, i enjoyed the most in JC! haha... okie gtg liao...
To Be Continued...
上天其實沒有對誰小氣過,只是我們通常太大方.
生活裡一定有足夠的滋味,我們卻常忘記了咀嚼.
Coming
A level is coming closer and closer... I am getting more scare as each mintue passes by, scared because I dunno what I really dunno. This is really a very serious and big problem! seeing rena and poornima so hard working each day actually made me felt gulity, they are working so hard to get their As, but here I am slacking around agian... This is really bad! Is really getting more and more tense up! I need someone to force me study.... some one fierce... but definitely not poon and rena cause they wont be fierce to me... haiz... forget it... 天无绝人之路...
Today, after our "studying" session, me, rena, poon and ms wang... opps is mrs neo... walked over to SJI to see see judo. Suddenly realised i miss training, the tough training... but then i miss swimming training even more! Swimming far more tiring than judo! last time after swimming, i will just go home and sleep straight away! Never even do homework... no wonder my results are bad. At first Swimming wasn't that bad lar, is when competition came, i really hate the feeling of competition! Swimming canival and nationals... really very stressed! So very soon, sec 3 that time became a bit rebellious. My training I started to slack more, skip training, a lot of complains that i cannot swim, also partly because of the "green turtle" also. During the last year, me and the other friend last minute told that turtle that we want to withdraw from nationals, and later of course created a lot of problems for her lar.
So later when i went JC, i joined judo, thinking that there shouldn't be any competition, cause i never heard of it. The first year was good, no competition, no stress... but then i talk too much with joraine... haha... and soon she became my good friends liao... hahaha... later in Yr 2 came the competitions. And I won my first gold and bronze in judo, but i wasn't happy deep inside, i saw people cried, like almost all cried... so sad... So later decided to give up... haiz... I guess i m not good at anything 吧. After today, i went back dunno why feel like trg with joraine again... hahaha... me a bit of weird rite?
To Be Continued...
Swollen
Yesterday, very lazy to write my blog... my eyes is swollen again... itchy and painful, really feel like rubbing it liao, so i can't stand it so faster go and sleep liao, and besides, nothing had happened yesterday... Cause i was at home the whole day, slacking around and did some housework lar...
Rainy day today again, cannot go swimming cannot go out... I guess that 谢肚子 and 母猪 curse haven over yet ba... really felt that the rain is following me everywhere... first was at toa payoh... When we were about to go home... i rained... HEAVILY! then later i took a mrt home lar... then went past Bishan, and it was not rainning, at first i thought maybe the rain likes to follow that 谢肚子 not me liao... but then i was wrong, when reach ang mo kio that time... it was like rainning so heavily lar... but i didn't care and walked in the rain home... really very cold... but anyway i still got home and sleep...
Oh yeah... and after I slept through the afternoon, i woke up and found the corner of my swollen eyes bleeding, like got something poke into it... then later i realise that there was like a blue black on my neck... I seriously think that my house got GHOST! I think i better stay out of the comp area liao... is getting more and more creepy liao... So i guess i shouldn't stay here for long liao...
To Be Continued...
NOTICE!
WaI MuN : My Birthday is coming in 9 days time! pls remember my present... thank you....
Wai Ling to Munny: 临时包佛脚，小心被佛祖踢一脚！
